My rating: 4 out of 5 stars
I don’t know what I was thinking when I hired someone to attack me. Maybe I was bored, or lonely, or there was a void so deep inside of me that I needed something explosive to fill it.
It was supposed to be safe. A thrill. A way to break through the monotony of everyday life. It was an illusion of danger that I could walk away from as soon as it was over.
Except that it wasn’t. Because I had been in danger long before I ever invited it into my life.
My mission is almost complete. The bubbling boil of vengeance that heats my blood might finally simmer.
She is the last piece of the puzzle. Once I destroy her, everyone who ever hurt me will have paid their debt.
It was supposed to be quick and easy, but as soon as I met her it got complicated.
★★★★ 4 Stars! ★★★★
This book was good, I'll give it that. It kept me intrigued thoughout every turn of the page and had just the right amount of dirty. I must warn you though- If dark romance novels isn't your thing, then stay far away from this one.
The heroine Mia works at an adult toy company and takes pride in what she does. Unfortunately for her however, work involving sex toys doesn't necessarily mean her sex life is exciting. She's always made due with mediocre romances, that is until her best friend tells her about a particular service in the form of a "rape fantasy" -- Basically, you pay someone to fake rape you when your least expecting it to happen. Like I said... The shit involved in this book can definitely take you out of your comfort zone if your not used to dark. With that being said, Mia is incredibly intrigued by this idea... A sexy stranger who promises to give you the hottest sex you've ever experienced, yet it can all be stopped with a safe word? It was all just too alluring an opportunity for her to resist. However, nothing can prepare her for the man that shows up to attack her...
Our hero Tax Draconi collects debts he feels are owed to him and his sister, and Mia is the last name on his list of people to pay. He targets her for a very specific reason that has everything to do with their shared past; A past that Mia has no recollection of, unbeknownst to Tax. I'll admit, I fell hard for our hero. You wanted to hate him because let's face it... The man was a total asshole.
"'I'm a hard person. I say mean things even when I don't mean to. If another guy lays a hand on you, I'll break it. I don't make love, or have sex, I fuck. Sometimes hard. Sometimes brutally. I don't get upset, I fuck shit up. I don't play well with others.'" -Tax
Fortunately for me, that's just my kind of man. Jerk heroes hold the key to my heart so I couldn't get enough of his cruel ways. He's a man who vowed he wouldn't feel anymore, because it only got him hurt in the end. Yet, when he meets Mia for the second time around, his feelings slowly started to change. Deep down inside, we start to see that a dangerous man with a cold heart still has a soft spot for the girl he fell head-over-heels in love with once long ago; The girl he feels cost him everything. His life used to be revenge and rage. However, the more time he spent with Mia, the more he started to see that she had given him something to see beyond the singular goal of vengeance.
Although I enjoyed this story, it was still missing that special itfactor that could have made this a five-star read for me. I think the biggest issue for me was the fact that the entire story had way more inner monologue featured than I would have liked. I'm all about getting inside the heads of my characters, but when a lot of dialogue is missing it tends to make the characters lack depth. Reading actual conversations taking place makes everything feel more alive and realistic- Something I thought was needed in this story. Not that I ever felt like a lot of lack of depth was involved... Things just felt a bit too one-dimensional to me at times and I found myself wishing for more conversations between the two main characters.
I will say, this book had a lot of hot, taboo smutty sex though. I usually tend to get bored with too many sex scenes but that didn't happen with me in this book. The fact that the sex wasHOT HOT HOT as well definitely helped matters, and was honestly the only reason the sex didn't become too much or too predictable.
"'Don't fucking act like you don't like this shit Mia. I know you want someone to dirty you up. I'll make you fucking filthy.'" -Tax
Another word of warning: There was one particular scene involving tampons and a woman's time of the month that was utterly fucking disgusting and unnecessary. As I said in a previous status update while reading, I just don't think I'll ever truly understand the reasoning behind why anyone would think that type of shit is a turn-on. I just... I can't.
Over-all, I truly wish I could give you more details about what this book entails, but it just simply shouldn't be spoiled. I think the synopsis is vague for a reason, and not knowing what you're getting into when starting this story is what makes it all the more fun and enjoyable. Like I warned before though... This isn't your typical hearts and rainbows romance- It's dark... Dirty... And all kinds of fucked up. Fortunately for me, that's just my cup of tea.